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okay. haven't blogged in a while so what happened after the dramatically desperate post before this is: 

1. the qt on sat morning was on stepping out of your comfort zone for God to do more wonderful things in your life. so I thought, dang. going to acsi would be a ginormous LEAP from my comfort zone. what with the guy:girl ratio, the presentations (in both english and chinese, God save me), the hardcore lit and my blanks during lit tests (God save me more) AND swimming lessons (I can see this coming already, God save me most oh my goodness). yes and I'm sure that's only the start of my worries if I really do go to acsi, so I was pretty much convinced that that was a sign from him and mentally decided to put it as my first choice. not to mention that I also promised him I would go to acsi willingly if I got 7, then freaked after I found out I did get 7. *insert paiseh emoji right here* 

2. Shing told me during sa's open house (which was pretty okay, continue on this later) that her friend's friend asked his teacher and his teacher said if you have a raw score of 7 or 8 you shouldn't even TRY acsi because everyone's doing well for ib and everyone wants to do it. so I thought about how low my chances would be even if I did put acsi as my first choice and my chances of getting in hc/rj are virtually nonexistent. so heck, let's just stick with acsi and take that risk. one risk is enough right. 

3. found out that Vanessa Nah, Tata and Shing may be putting acsi as first choice (but Tata didn't in the end, she put nj I think) and got more excited because that means I'll actually have friends if I do go there!!!! spent the rest of Saturday trying (and failing) to convince Dawn to put it as her first choice too cause she will get in. but I don't know what she put. and I don't know what it'll be like to be in the same school as her sigh. hopefully if we do end up in the same school, we'll have separate cliques yay. 

so I guess that's about it and I did end up putting acsi as my first choice, followed by acjc then sajc. and then tonight mom lovingly decided to tell me she thinks acjc would suit me more because she realised that it IS (emphasis because I told her before and she dismissed it) hard to get into a local u with ib and not a's. sigh. so now the problem is whether or not to appeal to acjc if I get into acsi. WHAT DO I DO. leave it to God, he'll settle it. right. I won't have to worry about my future/uni life until it comes a little bit closer but he has it all under control I give everything to him yay. okay I shan't worry. 

so SA's open house was rather okay. the atmosphere was about the same as St. Margs' and Dawn kept saying it's really nice but it kind of just turned me off, I'd much rather go to acjc than sa. I'm pretty sure the students there party more than the students in acjc so yes. but verses on the walls is not enough to get me to go there, they'll probably just make me less sensitive to those verses anyway so yes.

BUT. their mass dance was hilarious. I wanted to laugh so hard I needed to sit down. but I wasn't in the laughing mood so I just laughed for a long time normally. and plus they filled the whole dang canteen with J2s and man when they clapped it was SO LOUD. it was quite freaky. it was louder than them talking. yes. 

RJ's open house was fine. we didn't do much but they gave food in their goodie bag and that's about it. highlight of the open house. plus I drank koi. and we watched zac and ah dy perform yay. that's all. 

we had our cell. it was fine. wasn't great for a first one but it was fine. 

Sunday was just a bad day. almost cried in church thrice. got super pissed off. it was a bad day for everyone. it's over and thank God for that. 

AND. now here I don't know what else to write because I've rambled. OH.

I realised on Saturday that if acsi's guy:girl ratio is 5:1 HOW DO THEY HAVE A BATCH DANCE  :( oh man I want a batch dance so bad ugh. I REALLY DO it's so fun. sigh. sigh. :( ya that's about all I'm thinking about nowadays.

nothing is going on and I'm so bored at home so today I went with Chloe and Kaiwen to watch a movie (so undercover) with Miley in it. what even. that is how bored I am. it wasn't a very good movie, but it broke the monotony of staying at home staring at pudding two days in a row. that's good enough for me. 

sigh I really do need someone to entertain me or talk to me. okay bye let me go watch good eats and sleep early because sleeping early makes me wake late which means I have less hours to occupy.